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Tarot Reading Online

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on June 1, 2019 at 5:35 PM Comments comments (0)

I am going through a major transition in my life right now and my brain can not decide what to do. So, I tried tarot reading by https://www.free-tarot-reading.net/free" target="_blank" rel="nofollow">www.free-tarot-reading.net/free

These are the cards I chose randomly.

Card 1: How you feel about yourself »

The Magician

You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential.

You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in yourself and go for it!

Card 2: What you want most right now »

The Hierophant

Right now you want to have someone around you that you can trust and confide in, knowing that they won't let you down.


There are moral issues here, knowing right from wrong, and you may feel that you need some advice or wise counsel from a teacher, priest, parent or someone you have a lot of respect for, in order to help you make the right decision.


Card 3: Your fears »

The Star

You are fearful of the future and lacking in self-belief, afraid your hopes will be dashed. Well don't be! This is your wish card and signifies a time of joy and fulfilment.

Good health, possibly after a time of illness, and good fortune will give you a new zest of life. If considering a new love affair, new job or career, or travel, then go for it. You may also receive a gift or gifts!

Card 4: What is going for you »


You are about to enter a period of peace and harmony in your relationship, career or life in general.


You will find a way of handling difficult circumstances with calm confidence.

Life is flowing at this time - enjoy it.


Card 5: What is going against you »

The Tower

However hard you try to control events they just won't go your way.


Unexpected challenges, upheaval and disappointment will bring expectations to an end.


Subconsciously you may have wanted a solution - you just didn't expect it to happen this way.

Use this period of change as an opportunity for a new beginning.


If you have been planning to move home you will be experiencing setbacks.


Card 6: The likely outcome »

The High Priestess

Your intuitive powers are at their height at this moment in time; only by listening carefully and trusting them completely can you embrace that power.


Do this and you will make strong, clear, self-assured decisions.

Allow for flexibility and expect promising outcomes.

How To Earn Through Social Media

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on May 30, 2019 at 4:15 PM Comments comments (0)

I have attended a webinar by Danielle Leslie and here's what I learned from her. I haven't subscribe to her to get the full lecture. But I am sharing you what I have learned.

Secret #1: Select a topic around your Culture Add to guarantee you are differentiated in your niche.

What is your Culture Add?

Your cultural advantage

Your identity

Your circumstances

Where you've been & why

What you've achieved & how

Who you've helped along the way

Who & what you've taken a stand for

Secret #2: Create and MVC that you can market online (even if you don't have a following!)

Create your course content in 1 day AND charge a premium for it.

...even if it's your first digital product!

MVC (Minimum Viable Course)

Big Promise





"Beginner's Benefit"

- Scarcity

- Personal attention

- Customized feedback

- Personal stake in studeant's' scuccess

- More influence over students' success

- Strong case studies more likely

Secret #3: Create T.A.S.T.Y. Content to convert your MVP's to enroll.

What is T.A.S.T.Y. content?

T Teaches

A Action steps

S Solves an urgent pain

T Transforms

Y Addresses their "WHY"

IELTS Academic Writing Tips

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on March 7, 2018 at 1:10 PM Comments comments (0)

I summarized here on how to write your academic essay on IELTS. I recommend that you familiarize yourself to the different types of question on TASK 2 in order for you to understand this blog. For more details and examples visit ieltsadvantage.com 

Credit to Email: [email protected]





-Overview of main features


-Support overview with details



PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 Thesis Statement

.Sentence 3 Outline Statement

PARAGRAPH 2 - Supporting Paragrapgh 1

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2/3 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3/4 Give examples

PARAGRAPH 3 - Supporting Paragrapgh 2

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2/3 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3/4 Give examples

PARAGRAPH 4 - Conclusion

.Sentence 1 Summary and reiteration of opinion

 (In conclusion... ; To conclude... )

*ADVANTAGES AND DISADVANTAGES (Discuss the advantages and disadvantages)

PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 Outline Sentence

PARAGRAPH 2 - Supporting Paragraph 1 (Advantages)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3 Examples

PARAGRAPH 3 - Supporting Paragraph 2 (Disadvantages)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3 Exmaples

PARAGRAPH 4 - Conclusion

.Summary of main points


PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 Thesis Statement (state which one outweighs the other)

.Sentence 3 Outline Sentence

PARAGRAPH 2 - Main Body Paragraph (Stronger Side)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain why it is strong

.Sentence 3 Example

PARAGRAPH 3 - Main Body Paragraph 2 (Weaker Side)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain why it is weak

.Sentence 3 Example

PARAGRAPH 4 - Conlusion



PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 Thesis Statement (Opinion)

.Outline Sentence

PARAGRAPH 2 - Main Body Paragraph 1 (Advantages)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3 Examples

PARAGRAPH 3 - Main Body Paragraph 2 (Disadvantages)

.Sentence 1 Topic Sentence

.Sentence 2 Explain Topic Sentence

.Sentence 3 Examples

PARAGRAPH 4 - Main Body Paragraph 3 (Opinion)

.Sentence 1 Explain your opinion

.Sentence 2 Give examples

PARAGRAPH 5 - Conclusion

.Summary of main points


PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 State both points of view

.Sentence 3 Thesis Statement

.Sentence 4 Outline Sentence

PARAGRAPH 2 - Main Body Paragraph 1

.Sentence 1 TState first viewpoint

.Sentence 2 Discuss

.Sentence 3 Reason why you agree or disagree

.Give examples to support 

PARAGRAPH 3 - Main Body Paragraph 2

.Sentence 1 State second viewpoint

.Sentence 2 Discuss

.Sentence 3 Reason why you agree or disagree

.Give examples to support

PARAGRAPH 4 - Conclusion


.State which viewpoint is better or more important


PARAGRAPH 1 - Introduction

.Sentence 1 Paraphrase

.Sentence 2 Outline Sentence (What will you discuss in the essay)

PARAGRAPH 2 - Main Body Paragraph 1 (Problems)

.Sentence 1 State the problem

.Sentence 2 Explain the stated problem

.Sentence 3 Result of this problem

.Give examples

PARAGRAPH 3 - Main Body Paragraph 2 (Solutions)

.Sentence 1 State the solution

.Sentence 2 Explain how this solution solves the problem

.Sentence 3 Examples

PARAGRAPH 4 - Conclusion

.Summary of main points

.Prediction or recommendation

*paraphrase - reword

*Topic sentence -a sentence that expresses the main idea of the paragraph in which it occurs

*Outline sentence - arranges your ideas hierarchically (showing which are main and which are sub-points), in the sequence you want, and shows what you will talk about.

Credit to Google


Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on August 8, 2012 at 9:20 AM Comments comments (0)

---PART II of Stuck in Between Loss and Hopes (written in July 2012, on this site! See Below!)---

Last month, I wrote something about being stuck in someone'sworld and being trapped in my own hate and pain. My boyfriend and I were almost near to break-up again for the nth time. We’ve been on and off. It was really my fault. I must admit I was very insecure because of the past which I wasn’t supposed to. Despite of everything, it was still the best relationship I've ever had, which I think had made me even more paranoid than I usually would be. My thoughts were irrational, I thought of things exaggeratedly, until those things were no longer realistic. Everyone has fears in their relationships. For some reason that I was being cheated on before that my mind became completely obsessed by the crippling thought that he might do it again. What I’m saying is that, I think I had nothing to worry because he said, there’s nothing to worry about because that was a horrible mistake and he won’t ever do such things to hurt me again. But still, my mind was completely in fear-mode. The very thought of being cheated on and in pain filled in paranoid dread, so how must I start feeling like I had nothing to worry about?

We had plans together, we already had planned our future.Our future wedding, where to build up our own home, how many kids we’ll be having, etc…etc… One time last month, he told me to leave him alone. I knew he was sick and tired of all the dramas and arguments about anything and everything. I was afraid that it was for real and that we won’t recover this time. I thought I couldn’t handle that, so I must do something. I’m the weak one who doesn’t know how to start living all over again without him. I made myself dependent on him in so many ways that he became a part of me. I pressured him to talk about it soon, I kind of wanted to hear it instead of waiting and being sad and confused for too long. Since our anniversary was coming, I wanted to spend the whole special day with him. I asked him if I could be with him from 12:00MN of Aug 7 to 11:59PM of Aug 8. I've been moving into a new stage of my life, stressing a lot lately, crying, and so on. I like him, even with his inability to say the things I need to hear and everything. He has a lot of good sides, which make me want to be with him regardless. I was desperate to make it work and fix our relationship. If only I could bring back time to just go back to everything the way it was, I’d be willing to try harder.

It was Aug 7 at 5PM when I asked permission from momma if I can go to where my boyfriend is working because the next day is our anniversary and she said I can go tomorrow instead. My family likes my boyfriend way too much,they make him feel welcome in the family. I explained to momma about my concerns, but didn’t tell her the exact reason why I wanted to go. I just told her that I waited for 364 days for that day, that I waited for too long to spend the day with someone who makes the day special. Sure thing she didn’t understand that I was trying to save my relationship with the most important person in my life. The next day, Aug 8, I went to visit my boyfriend in the city while working. He absented himself from his work which gave me enough reason that he’sthe right one for me. We spent 24 hrs together, rode the karitela at night, had our dinner date, and had all the time talking things out. It was another best day of my life, of our life. After 24 hrs, I went home with a feeling that was more than just winning as gold medalist from the Olympics. So, momma finally understood that I tried to save my relationship and thanks to her ‘cause she let me.


Expiration of Fatality

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on August 7, 2012 at 7:10 AM Comments comments (0)

I'll pray harder that I shall be able to fulfill my quest in my existence at the earliest possible time...and the thieves in the dawn will come to take me and won't give me a notice...then just fade away, like smoke into the blue, blue sky. Then eventually, will stop wandering and taste the eternal

Right Now, Letters Are My Friends

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on August 1, 2012 at 1:20 PM Comments comments (0)

I've got 3K+ friends on facebook, but I don't even know the majority of them. I barely talk to any of these 3K+ on my list...and there seems to be disconnecting lately with the small number of people I can talk to about private stuffs. I can make friends easily, but over the passed years I have been in sporadic friendship. They come and go. Maybe I'm selfish, weird, or IDK!That's probably why I've gone through so many friendships and lost many friends. Know what? Sometimes I sit back and wonder if I even have friends, really. *sigh*

One More Chance (Review)

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on July 22, 2012 at 1:30 PM Comments comments (8)

Remember this movie way back 2007 which John LLoyd Cruz as Popoy and Bea Alonzo played the role of Basha? Who wouldn't remember this beautiful movie which almost every Filipino could relate to the story line?

For the entire story, I could relate to Popoy. Popoy was my reflection of what I am going through right now. On the first part of the story, Basha is asking for space and is breaking up with Popoy. But Popoy doesn't know if he could go on without the love of his life, because all he need is just the one who he wants to be with for the rest of his life. When Popoy has finally moved on, it turned out to be Basha as my reflection. Basha gets what she wanted, space, but she can't move on because she's still in love with the same man she chose to broke into pieces. One thing that strucked me was the lines Popoy said to Basha on the latter part. I wanted to say these exact lines to the one who broke my heart, but it would just make me look like dumb and "madrama!"

Popoy to Basha: "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not saying sorry before. Nung kasi nagkahiwalay tayo, ang inisip ko, sarili ko lang, yung nararamdaman ko lang, yung gusto ko lang. I'm sorry Bash naging madamot ako. Hindi ko inintindi na kailangan mo ring hanapin yung Basha na nawala nung minahal mo ko. Hindi mo alam kung gaano ko kagustong sabihin sayo na sana tayo nalang, sana tayo nalang ulit. Pero pag, sa tuwing nararamdaman ko kung gaano kita kamahal, hindi ko maiwasang maramdaman ulit lahat ng sakit...And I'm sorry. Ako na to eh Bash. Ako naman ang may kailangan ng panahon ngayon para makalimutan ko na lahat ng sakit. Para maalala ko lahat ng maganda at mabuti sa'tin. Para bumalik yung Popoy na nawala nung nagkahiwalay tayo. I want my heart to stop breaking Bash. Para pag naging tayo ulit, kaya na kitang mahalin ng buong-buo na walang halong takot kung masaktan man tayo muli."

I wish I could find the right words to make him stay.

Translation to English: I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not saying sorry before. When we broke up, I was only thinking of myself, I was only thinking of my feelings, I was only thinking of what I want. I'm sorry Bash if I was selfish. I didn't understand that you needed time too to find the Basha that was gone when you loved me. I don't know how much I wanted to say to you that it would be me and you, that it would be us again. But if, everytime I feel how much I love you, I can't avoid to feel again all of the pain...And I'm sorry. This is me, Bash. It's me who needs time now to forget all the pain. For me to remember all the beautiful and good things happened to us. For me, to bring back the Popoy who I've lost when we broke up. I want my heart to stop breaking, Bash. For when we get together again, I can love you with all my heart without agitation if we might get hurt again.

Stuck in Between Loss and Hopes

Posted by Miss.LamadridHCL on July 21, 2012 at 5:40 AM Comments comments (0)

        I don’t know how to start with this…

        We were schoolmates in a co-ed Catholic high school in our town. He was a senior with a junior girlfriend while I was a sophomore with no one just few friends when the first time I saw this cute with fair complexion and super neat guy. With an average height of 5 feet and 6 inches. I was struck by his fascinating smile and tantalizing eyes every time he was with her girl around the campus. A thought was always lingering inside my head, “How lucky is she to have a guy I will never have.” I was so sure that he wouldn’t like me. I’m not the type of girl he dreamed of, I guessed. I was neither beautiful nor a sexy-figured being. I was not even famous. We crossed path ways often times but we never talk, say hi, smile or anything. Just a single glance to me and numerous glances to him. We were completely strangers and one of us is hoping to be acquainted, be friends so to speak – that was no other than just me!

        To cut the story short…

        I started college in a well-known university of excellence in the mountains where they so called City of Pines and the Summer Capital Region. I had few relationships that didn’t last long. Six months was the longest so far. I had no news about the guy I wanted to speak with during my high school days. I didn’t know to where school he was attending to or what career he was pursuing even and whatnot. I took up nursing at Saint Louis University for a year and continued the rest in a well-known college with a high quality of standard education of nursing in La Union, which a second degree relative was the founder. I couldn’t actually believe what my 20/20 vision had saw – the question-mark-guy right there, was flashing the smile that once captivated me and that was my first time to see him laughing with his friends in same sex. So, I eventually found out that we were pursuing the same profession.

        After few days, I checked my e-mail and saw huge piles of notifications from Friendster.com. I actually hated receiving those large piles of notifications, but one thing allured me, a message from the guy I once dreamed of to spend the rest of my life with. I was dumb-founded that he was on my friend list and I never even notice. He was asking for my mobile phone for friendship purposes only, I gave it to him without second thought. Finally, it was my chance, thank God! We started exchanging text messages, got to know more each other better, and we became good friends. He was kind, sweet, and almost perfect. I couldn’t believe that he was no longer a stranger, that I had him not as a lover but at least a very good friend. It was better that way.

        Twist and turns were always there. My world was nothing short of hell on earth. I didn't know what that I needed to be happy and I wanted to because I've been depressed for too long and I hated it. I woke up feeling empty, bleak and started attracting good vibes but seemed things never change. I used to think I'd feel better if I had someone in my life but I knew it was deeper than that. My friends were all either in long term relationship or at the least steady one. It made me feel so insecure and jealous because I had no one. I didn't even go out that often anymore because my friends were busy with their own lives and studies whereas, I was taking a gap year to 'find myself' which I so horribly hadn't. I was lonely as hell and depressed most of the time. I really didn't know what to do to change it. I'd hated to think I was going to feel like that for the rest of my life. I sat at home alone playing on the computer. I wanted some excitement in my life, anything will do. But I just couldn’t seem to find it. I wanted some friends and people to hangout with. I just wanted a life that I enjoy living. I was so tired of just existing.

        He was there to fill the emptiness in my life. He chased me for more than a year before we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend. After he graduated in college, he had to go miles away for his family while I was left to where we started, pursuing my degree. It was a long distance relationship and I found it very hard to deal with. Yet, he sent me love letters and flowers on my birthday and on valentine’s. He introduced me to his family during our first Christmas Eve together. Everything was almost perfect. I couldn’t ask for more. I broke up with him at the exact date of our first anniversary – that was 6th day of August, 2009. I knew very well that I hurt him so much but it wasn’t my intention. How could I hurt someone I’ve been dreaming of to be with for the rest of my life? I guessed we needed space for each other. That hurt me when I saw him hurting, it hurts twice as much. I knew how it felt like and how hard to fight for a long distance relationship and kept the communication open. Some things might happen and I wasn’t ready for the consequences, I wasn’t ready to get hurt if one fine day he would just leave me. I didn’t tell him the reasons why I had to break up because I couldn’t. I couldn’t argue, I was afraid. I still loved him though.  I had done and said some things that I felt had made him hate me. I wanted to see him again, I guessed I just needed some confirmation that he hated me, if he did and it was proven, maybe I could move on. I didn’t know what I should do, if I should seek for him. I was scared that if I continue on that road, I was going to have a mental breakdown. I felt like I was going through a meltdown. I had prayed, asked around written letters but I was seemingly yes, stuck in a rut. Communication was cut for couple of months and it was almost 6th of August again, he sent memessages.

        Just when I was so ready for a commitment, 8th ofAugust 2010 we decided to get back and start a new life together again. It was 8th of August 2011 and we were supposed to celebrate our anniversary, but things had changed since. The guy I thought who was consistently so wonderful and nice turned out to be someone who consistently lied, cheated, and broke my heart into pieces. I was dumb-founded that this guy I once found almost perfect did things I hated the most. I didn’t know this could be the price of breaking up with him before. I never thought the price could be so high that it could be such scenario like being cheated to. That was exactly what I was afraid of and the reason why I broke up with him before, that someone might take him away from me. It was like millions of sharp pins were penetrating my fragile heart. That was the most painful and devastating scenario ever happened in my life so far. Still, I tried to patch things up though we stopped talking. I wanted to fix things because I thought I couldn't go on with life without him.  He was my everything and my life. I tried to reach him to talk things out but he wasn’t willing to straighten things out. I was not sure if I should take the responsible route, be depressed, unhappy and completely downright miserable but knew I did the right thing or took the submissive route, be unhappy but maybe succeed at something and follow the first dream I had in a long time to that I actually had motivation to do.





        Still he refused to talk. I decided to move on and go on with my life, hoping one day I would find someone who would be faithful and loyal. It was very hard keep going while all that I wanted was to be with him forever, but that was never going to happen anymore. It was mid December 2011 when he came by my house, tried to talk things out. Why the hell did he came too late? That I didn’t even know why.

        Again, to cut the story short…

        We broke up for so many times and accepted him for countless times. My friends told me not to give him another chance but I was foolish and stupid. I lost all of my friends and I had not made at least one friend since then. It was still a long distance relationship. He visited me at my house once or twice a month. Sometimes, never in a month. I tried to understand that he was busy with work. Tried to ignore the doubts and fears that he might be cheating on me again. Sometimes, no matter how busy he was he didn’t bother to call or text and I hated it. That brought us to arguments and silence for days. He kept doing it although he already knew I hated it when he didn’t call or text.

        What was a great challenge we overtook was still the same challenge that was overtaking us. I always did confront him about my unhappiness, opened up and admitted what I could see. Things got better for a time, and we had many ups and downs, got close to splitting up, then made up again. That became a cycle. He grew afraid of losing me, and he had changed a lot, tried to please me constantly.  But honestly, even though he kept telling me how much he loved me and tried to demonstrate it, I could only seen fear in his eyes, not love.  I only seen a fear of being alone and I didn't really see the love at all. I thought he didn't love me but he said he did.  He was so rational and it made me feel crazy. I tried so hard to be a good girlfriend, but then I was just started crying for no reasons and wiped out all of my work.  He got frustrated about my changes.  I got jealous so easily. Could I even explain it to myself, the WHYs of those impulses to leave?  I couldn’t break his heart.  How could I make it on my own?  Did I really even want to? I was not sure.  I knew I could only act when I was sure.  I needed to get clear.  I needed a serious look at the reality of my life whatever that was. I thought I got over it and people told me time heals everything. But it had not. I didn'tcry about it as much anymore, but just the thought of "I wonder how our life would be today if he didn't do that" was what bothered me. I was overthinking beyond too much. I dwelt on certain things that happened and I got stuck in those thoughts until I was completely tormented. It turned into nightmares so vivid that I kept myself awake on purpose so I didn’t have to live thru things again.  I kept thinking I could find a resolution to things but I thought about things so much that they didn’t even make sense anymore and they began to bother me more than they did to begin with. I didn’t know why I felt it is necessary to dwell and thought that somehow I could reverse the damage that many different situations had caused, and there had to be a way. But so far, nothing was coming and I was stuck in my brain. I wish I could turn it off.

        Every time we had a fight and misunderstandings, when I got hurt I still couldn't separate him from my thoughts. It just one of those things I refused to give up on. I just didn’t really know if I was truly inlove or if I was truly stupid inlove.  Sometimes I ate a lot and sometimes I didn't eat at all when I was depressed and hopelessly thinking about how hard being stuck in his world. I did nothing all day besides slept at 3 in the morning after sitting online all day and then woke up 10-12 hours later. I wanted something to motivate me but I didn't want to waste my time waiting for something. I WANTED TO BE THE SOMETHING. But I was not. I was in a rut with myself.  It had been a rough few years of my life. Every time I tried to make a change I somehow got back in the same place! I was so tired of being strong and needed a break! I am just tired being sick and tired! But how did I know when to draw the line?  I did know that I didn’t like crying and I didn’t like fighting to define what my relationship was with my boyfriend. He said he loved me but c’mon, I knew when a man really meant it vs. when it was bullshit. I just wanted to believe in that relationship as much as possible, but I felt hopeless all at the same time. My relationship was unbelievably awful. I believed I had loved the numbest human on the planet and I hated myself for not seeing it before I jumped into this. I was fucking lost and damn stuck in between despair and hopes.

        Could still there be someone help me fall in love with myself all over again?

        What I had realized was that it was not what you know; it was what you go through. From there you learn how to change yourself for the better. Learn from other people’s mistakes and your own. Once you find the key to your problems, use it to open the gates of the world. Live life instead of holding back. You only live on earth once. Don't be afraid of it, embrace it. Sometimes I do still sit in myself pity and think of things I could of, should of, and would of done and didn't. It’s hard to move forward when you have no closure from before. But for now I have to take it one day at a time and I know one day I will learn to move forward instead of backwards, then I'll be able to pressplay on my life.